I like to think of my brain as a motor operating at full speed ahead 95 percent of the time. I always have a million ideas swirling through my head of things to do, places to go, items to check off a never-ending imaginary to-do list. Even when I have time off to sit and just be, I find my brain swimming with ideas of the great things I could accomplish. Just think of how many books I could read, stories I could write, places I could visit, paintings I could paint, TV shows I could watch, miles I could run…with all that time. And then the next thing I know I’ve been sitting in the exact same chair for three hours scrolling through social media and thinking about all the things I could be doing at that precise moment but am, in fact, not doing.
Isn’t that the majority of us though? When given the opportunity to imagine all the things we could do, don’t we all usually find ourselves just…sitting? Dreaming? Scheming? Contemplating? We have great visions and dreams for our future selves. But when given an opportunity to explore those dreams, we become locked in the cycle of the mundane and ordinary.
Even now, as I sit down to write, determined to get this blog really up and running, no words truly come to mind. Nothing that I wanted to say ten minutes ago are finding themselves on the page. Writing, then, becomes a chore…another box to check on that to-do list of mine. And so I will write a little, maybe scroll through to find a cute picture to post with it, and then I’ll go back to whatever mundane task was occupying my time before I decided to become a genius blogger/writer and make my millions.
Is this just human nature? The majority of us ordinary folk just rambling about, dreaming and scheming about what could be and then settling for business as usual until the next spark gets ignited in us? And what happens to those who do feel like they’ve accomplished their dreams and goals? What happens when you find yourself at the top? I wonder that anyone is truly satisfied with their own status quo. Perhaps that’s what keeps the dreamers dreaming and the schemer scheming. Accomplish one goal, move on to the next, never really stopping, never really ceasing. Just keep going until…until what? Until the next dream, I guess.
Perhaps that’s what keeps us going though. Perhaps that’s what keeps life interesting. Human nature is to crave more, want more, dream more. Set goals, map out plan to achieve goals, accomplish goals, on to the next. And so I’ll keep dreaming my dreams and scheming my schemes. Setting my goals and marking things off my to-do list. But along the way I will find the moments to pause and just be. To give thanks for this motor brain of mine that is constantly thinking of the next big thing I’ll do. And I will soak up what this life has to offer, even if all it’s got for me at this precise moment is a comfy chair, some fuzzy socks, a peppermint mocha, and a really darling kitty curled up in my lap. This dream will do for now.
Well, this took a turn didn’t it? I planned on writing a short blurb that went something along the lines of, “hello, I’m back! Yay look at me actually posting something! Ok bye, talk soon! Bless!”
The mind wanders where it will wander, I guess.
Until next time, my friends.